Tag Board

mn~dubai: Eid Mubarak Lulu :) enjoy ur time :)
sjrnn: nice photos :)
noura: UpDate!!
mn~dubai: hi lulu, send me the song :) let me try
noura: Lulu 7abeebty wainch? Laish z3lanh? I miss you! Please update! We are waiting for you..I sent an email..
uaeKlassic: 72556 and I am still counting .....
Clarisse: Hi there! Just walking around the neighborhood and checking out my neighbors' blogs! I'm liking it here. You are welcome to mine...swing by for a cup of coffee ...a link-up and a little chat...anytime
Matt: Never Say Goodbye, Hayley Westenra......is all i need to say, smile lu....you are loved
Beherzt: I'm glad you're still posting, I still haven't come round to it myself, most of the others are gone now, but I'm happy you are still here. Best wishes
Deem: missing you :(
Naheeda: lovely blog.
Mr Right : Lulu in the marineplatz :) hope you like it there
karamilah: u've been tagged http://www.karamilah.com/2008/12/life-is-all-about-random-stuff.html
Deem: waiting ;)
mn~dubai: ahleen Lulu, am doing well, what about u dear lulu, hope life is treating u well too :) and never forget to smile :)
Deem: where have you been long time :( tawalaht 3leech ..
Adam: I like your photography style , you have your own style and it is clear in your shots
BigMo: EID MUBARAK
Sam: What a cute baby :)So Cute :) .
Ahmed: اَللّـهُمّ اغْسِلْني فيهِ مِنَ الذُّنُوبِ] وَطَهِّرْني فيهِ مِن الْعُيُوبَ‎وَامْتَحِنْ قَلْبي فيه بِتَقْوَى الْقُلُوبِ‎[يا مُقيلَ عَثَرات الْمُذْنِبينِ‎Ameen ,
MiracleGirl: remember me? :$long time no c, miss yaw :hug:
lulu: Joe: Thank you; glad you liked the photos. & regarding the lost album, it's still lost =(
Joe: Did you find your lost album, I hope so
Joe: your shots are wonderfull
karamilah: mbarak 3alaich ilshahar, w yn3ad 3alaich kil sena w kil 7ol inshallah
Paul Brahler: Hope all is well with you!
Alain: I am really happey to see you writing again lu :)
pay: hopping ...
BigMo: ..Good luck, you are ......
mandi791: Hey! just stopping by your page to say hi! Hope everything is going well for you!
MssK: Lulu I met you in Careers 2008 :) and talked to you , I really liked talking to you :)
Mademoiselle: luvd ur blog =)
BigMo: ...thanx and take care
karamilah: leaving to egypt this afternoon, twa9een 3ala shay?, if yes please send me an email and i will make sure i get u whatever u wanted
mandi791: wow the farm looks like a great place!
robin: Heya! Sorry for the cheeky tag, but I am trying to get as many visitors to my cancer charity blog as i can - loads of signed items for auction in aid of a great cause, why not pop on by and have a look - dont forget to sign the guestmap. rx
mn~dubai: am here mind and soul, and yes i know brothers could be way nice and way annoying ^_^
BlogGirl: Nice place ! Love the pics:)
BigMo: Lulu have a success trip, we pray you will be helthier, but not as fat as me, soon.
karamilah: knock knock, you there??please update
mandi791.bravejournal.com: Hey there! Just stopping by! Hope you are doing well!
Sharon: Hi there.. I noticed your site has been visiting my site.. LOL.. or something like that.. Just wanted to say hi to you.. Nice to meet you..
Deem: missing you so much
BigMo: :)
angel: hello
Kerri: Just doing some surfing and wanted to say HI and congrats on winning the JotW.
BigMo: ..MaBrOoOoK..
mandi791: congrats! Your place is great!Keep it up:)
Kris: Congrats on winning JOTW!!
Steven: Congrats on JOTW!
Connie: Congrats on JOTW! I've enjoyed visiting here before.
Dee: Congratulations on winning the JOTW award. You deserve it! Your journal is really great. I love all your photos. Well done!
Keish: I love your photos...
Weigh to Go: Hi Lulu. It's Monday, Feb. 4, 2008. I'm just dropping in to say congrats to my co-winner of this week's JOTW Award.
Connie: It's -9F -23C here not even counting the wind chill.
BigMo: my friend, ...coke isn't good for your health!!
lulu: BigMo: Thanks! Happy eid to you too
BigMo: nice stuff......as usual.....thanx and happy Eid
MiracleGirl: ooooooh loooooooong time no see dear (hug) i luuuf yeeeew sista
Garf: care to exchange link?
karamilah: hey, can i add ur blog to my link list
rae: hi! i really enjoyed your journal. i hope you have a great weekend
lulu: Fahad Alsaadi: Thank you =) It's good to see you here. Wish you the same and more!; sven-marvin: hello from lulu =p; Du: "lu" - hmm, you just gave me a fabulous idea! I know I haven't been around for a looong while =/ I'm ok, thanks for asking =) Hope you are too!
Du: Missing you lu, hope you are doing ok, did not hear from you from some time ,
sven-marvin: hello from sven-marvin
Fahad Alsaadi: Good to see you back to your wonderful blogwish you the best
lulu: Deem: I miss you much much more xoxox; BigMo: ramadhan kareem to you too.
BigMo: Ramadhan Kareem....
Deem: I miss you so much xoxoxox ..
ChemicalxDamage: hey lulu , its been a long time since I visited your journal . I hope you're okay & ramadan kareem dear : )
Nawaf: Hey there :) How's it going.. hope you're alright. Wishing you a pleasant time abroad.. and wish u safe return. Let me hear from you soon..:) Cheers..
mn~dubai: am around :) enjoy ur time and come back happy :)
MrDubai: Howdy Howdy, see how the whole life controled by kids. because of schools starting time every one starts coming back to U.A.E. and starts getting busy in buying the bags pencils...and old people back to thier work after getting long vecation.
ChemicalxDamage: hello from kw
BigMo: Wish you a wonderfull summer
djRolla: All is well! Thank you!
mn~dubai: one day i just wrote this note on my word plan page, and suddenly " rest of story e-mailed plz check"
lulu: Paul =) I'm so happy to see you again!! You've been missed...how are you??
djRolla : Hope all is well with you!
MrDubai: It's a great feelings, It's your heart who wrote and felt it.
Prettyness: hey lulu, nice blog! they way u write is really nice! w alffffff mabroook 3al tarqeya... pleaseeee give tips to the soon-to-be graduate =D
Rinckle: Hi, Its Rinckle from Kuwait ! Cool Blog ! Bt Black & White Combination!
BigMo: ....mabrooook !!!
Elrezinah: Congratulation!!!!! You derserve it sister!!! Way to go!!
domo3el7zn: hi...it`s first time I visit your blog...I liked it...good luck^-^
lulu: B.: Miss you xo Holly: I am...thank you +hug+ mo: hey =) BigMo: Shock @?
BigMo: ..wooooow!!! ....
mo: hey
BigMo: :)
Holly : Hope you are well.
beherzt: Miss you too. Think about you often.
betty: thanks for stopping by and thanks for the nice comments:)
wishlamp: I hope you had a great Valentine's Day. I hope it was full of love, hugs, and kisses! ..... Also I added the link 2 my wedding page 4 U on this message. (Please click on this link 2 C my wedding page.)
BigMo: ...nice stuff!!
loanne: hi :) i like your page! anyway, hop hop.. tc
Faith: cool blog :D
AD_Queen: hello sisi missing u alot hon :)
funkystar : nicee place
MiracleGirl: miss ya sweets! happy 3eed
mn~dubai: ahleen lulu :) same 2 u, happy new year : full with joy + roses + rain + hope and wonderful moments :) to the best dearest lulu
Ally: Hope you had a good Xmas too, lulu. Thanks for visiting. Hugs :) I'll be back soon

Please type in the four characters shown in the black box.

March 24, 2006

7:04 PM

The Closet

  • Mood:
  • Quote: "It's not whether you win or lose, it's how you place the blame." - Oscar Wilde

The furniture in my room is very antique-like.  There's nothing shiny or glossy - just plain old matte pieces here and there.  If you were to ask me which is my favorite item in the room, I'll definitely reply that it's my closet - the first one that is.

It was my hiding place.

I can so clearly recall the numerous times I'd run up the stairs and head to my room, with the aim of being in my closet - not the 'room'.  I'd open the beautifully carved wooden doors, move the hung clothes to the side and would scramble to sit carefully on the flat surface atop the four rows of drawers, before reaching out to grab the pink velvet-like material surrounding the inner mirrors, eventually succeeding in closing the doors.  I'd hug my knees and keep my eyes closed.  Listening to the footsteps of whom ever was following me.  I'd smile once I knew that they'd left - thinking I must be hiding somewhere else.  I used to perceive it as a small 'victory' for little me.

It was the one place where I felt no one could hurt me.  Where I wouldn't hear harsh words.  Where my imagination soared.  Where my barriers came down.  Where I'd have conversations with my imaginary friends.  Where all that was bothering me would poof!: miraculously disappear into thin air.  It was my haven.  As I grew older & no longer had people running after me anymore, my 'visits' to the closet grew less.

+sigh+

Today has been a sad day for me.  A day where I felt so alone & my spirit broken.  A day I remembered the closet - & so longed to be in it.

I stood in front of it.  Looking at the familiar artistic brush strokes.  Smiling when I saw a pink star I had stuck on it years & years ago.  I had a yearning, to go back in time, where all I cared about...well, thinking about it now, nothing really.

I opened the doors, gazing at the drawers and the mirrors on either side.  I pushed aside clothes, with my good hand i.e. left & sat in the usual spot, curling up in the tiny space.  I was even able to close the doors, very slowly of course - but if I may add, 'skillfully'.

& there I was, alone.

I stayed in there for a while; surrounded by so many thoughts and emotions - before getting out.

Nothing was solved nor mended but, it was interesting to discover that:

my 'Narnia' still exists.

Greatest Secrets

"And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it." - Roald Dahl

Health-wise: not so good.  I couldn't go to work on Wednesday - lots of complications.  =/  Going to see another doctor tomorrow and I'm scheduled to have a MRI done on Monday.  I hope all goes well.

Will try my best to update soon.  Promise.

Over-due thank you's:

mezo: Happy Belated Birthday hon.  I hope you had a grand day!  I can't even begin to describe how much I miss you.  Who knows, maybe one day right?  Thanks for your sweet words and prayers sugar.  Wishing you, and your family, happiness and health always.  +hug+

juju: No need to apologize my dearest friend.  I know how it is when you're leading a hectic life.  Thank you for the 'get well' wishes and prayers.  You're such a beautiful person that deserves all happiness.  May all your dreams come true. +hug+

ae_flickr: Thank you for your 'get well' wishes and prayers.  Your kindness is most appreciated.  May you always be happy.

Fahad Al Saadi: Thank you for the email and for your kind 'get well' wishes.  I hope my reply reached you.  Wish that all is well with you.

Fahad Al Mahmood: Thank you for the kind words you scribbled in my blog - truly appreciated.  Welcome to my blog & hope you'll pass by again.

DareDevil: Thank you for scribbling & welcome to my blog too.  Hope you'll pass by again.

thesahara: Thank you for passing by and for the 'get well' wishes - appreciated.  Hope you continue to pass by & to enjoy reading.

Thanks to everyone who tagged and scribbled, with regards to my health situation. 

Means a lot to me.

4 scribble(s).

Posted by 3so0ola:

awwh =( some memories can be painful sometimes.. other times they bring a smile to ur face..

I hope that all ur memories will make u smile, even after a time of bein sad

hope u'll be feelin well soonz

good luck =)
March 27, 2006 @ 12:43 PM

Posted by lulu:

3so0ola: Welcome to my blog & thank you for the sweet wishes. Hope your memories are as sweet as you. Good luck to you too =)
April 1, 2006 @ 10:03 PM

Posted by Golam Mostafa:

Hello Lulu,
I was delighted so much and enjoyed your beautiful blog, daily notes of diary. Hope to see lots more and keep it up. Thanks. Best regards.

Mostafa.
April 30, 2006 @ 10:17 AM

Posted by lulu:

Mostafa: Thank you for passing by. I'm so glad to know that you enjoyed reading my posts...& hopefully, you'll continue to pass by.
Thank you for the kind words.
April 30, 2006 @ 7:06 PM

Post New Comment

 BraveJournal Member Non-Member
No Smilies More Smilies »
Please type the letters you see